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In the depths of my being, a strange certainty, deeper than reason, entirely animal in quality, filled me with terror. The same certainty which some beasts-sheep and rats feel before an earthquake. Awakening in me was the soul of the first men on Earth, such as it was before it became totally detached from the universe, when it still felt the truth directly, without the distorting influence of reason- The 'Boss', Zorba the Greek

Sunday, February 22, 2009

Saturday, February 14, 2009


Things you want to say to your friends, but can't/shouldn't/don't want to/scared to:

Your boyfriend is a creep. Leave him/ I 'm gad you left him. Someone else will make you happy.

Do you like girls more than you like boys? Boys more than girls?

You need help, your thoughts , actions and feelings are so disjointed.You are bordering schizophrenia.

You are depressed.

Smile, it's been forever since I saw you happy.

You have problems, talk about them but ermm, I have something to say too.

Is the friendship we had when we were kids all we have left? I don't see you caring anymore. 

Wow! you sure know how to lie!

Oh! Shut up!!!

I don't like you.You disappoint me.

*sigh* Maybe I am the disappointment and hypocrite for not saying it as it is. 


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Monday, February 9, 2009

Pink Chaddi Campaign

Cos I like to go to "pubs".

Sunday, February 8, 2009

I'm IT!

1. What does your user name mean?
Courtyard Chronicles- I would like to imagine myself sitting in a courtyard, drinking coffee reading the chronicles.?!!? I mean, what does Firozi Fish mean? heh.

2. Elaborate on your user photo.
Barcelona, walking from Parc Guell- saw this lovely doorway.Loved the colours.

3. How many comments do you have?
Not many.

4. What's your current relationship status?

5. What exactly are you wearing right now?
Black harem pants. Brothers oversized t shirt. Sunday- who bathes?

6. What is your current problem?

7. What do you love the most?
Not knowing and just doing,mostly. These days though, I am not loving it.

8. What makes you most happy?
Reconnecting, food and these days, cooking-even if i suck at it. oh and cleanliness and order. haha

9. Are you musically inclined?
Unfortunately, no.

10. What would you do if you woke up one morning and found out you were on cocaine?
Get help. Highly unlikely since if given a chance- I would rehabilitate the entire town of Chandi. I despise drugs.

11. If you could go back in time and change something, what would it be?
Probably, not take so much time off and procrastinate.

12. If you MUST be an animal for ONE day, what would you be?

13. Ever had a near-death experience?

14. Name an obvious quality you have.

15. What's the name of the song that's stuck in your head right now?
Sunday morning- Maroon 5

16. Are you happy today?
Neither here nor there.

17. Who will cut and paste this first?

18. Name someone with the same birthday as you
Ishneet or someone- some random boy from a random school.Why this remains in my memory is beyond me.

19. Do you have a secret crush on someone?

20. Do you have a garbage disposal in your kitchen sink?
Rephrase:DO I have a kitchen sink?

21. Have you ever been in a fight?
Sure.Never thrown a punch or a jujitsu kick. I dream of it. HAYYYYE_YA!

22. Have you ever sung in front of a large audience?
haha. Yes. Wild World in front of Sector 17 plaza

23. What's the first thing you notice about the OPPOSITE sex?
Hand shake

24. What's your biggest mistake?
Just sittin.

25. Say something totally random about you.
I can't swim..

26. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity?
Yeah,Zeenat Amaan. !!

27. Are you comfortable with your height?

28. What is the most romantic thing someone has ever done for you?
Pizza candle-lit dinner.

29. What are your favourite smells?
Rain on dry earth, bread baking, CK Be, the way my Grandmom smells 

30. What's something that really annoys you?
Unhappy people.

31. What's something you really like?
Connecting with old friends.Remembering.

32. Do you give random hugs and kisses?
I would love to walk around with a 'Free Hugs' placard

33. What's the latest you have ever stayed up?
maybe 36 hours?

34. Have you ever been rushed to the emergency room?
Once maybe.Put on the drip and all that.

I tag anyone who wished to be tagged.Not many people come through here, but if you do- you've been TAGGED!


Lost opportunities.
Failed trials.
Where am I? 

Baz Luhrman, I think of you often these days.

Monday, February 2, 2009

Into the wild

"Almost." came my reply. 

"When are you getting married?"
My favourite question!! My first question of the day, that too. Not a nosey aunty, or a concerned parent or an annoying friend ,or a cheap pick up line but a potential employer.
"No plans.", was my reply. When are you having children, getting a divorce, dying -stupid cow!

That I have commitment issues (work wise) is pretty evident from my resume. This was the interviewers main reason for concern. "We need a year's commitment." "Of course, no problem." Oh,man! A year? Commit?Same job? NOOOOOOOO!

"The management will discuss it and get back to you in the next few days."
Hold on! How much money? What are the hours? Do you like me? Are you rejecting me? (Leiden I hate you! You make me fear rejection as much as I fear mattar and gheeya.)

"Thanks for coming and good luck with your life." Now, I may not be an expert in human psychology but I have done my fair share of reading and this to me seems like a typical Freudian slip. Good luck with life? Are you kidding me? That's as good as saying- uhmmm- yeah , not really but thanks for coming!

While I sat there, watching a session- I couldn't help but think-is this what I want? Is my heart and soul in this? And I know, that it isn't completely in it but there is something. That little feeling, desire to be part of the sped world. But, there is a part of me that just wants nothing to do with it. It brings me back to the ever prevelant , doomed question of my life- what do I want to do?